intergalacticstarlight

To be honest, same.

Like honestly, where IS everybody? I don’t say this to guilt anyone, because God knows I know how it is for IRL to be always a priority, and frequently overwhelming, but the thing is…it’s summer??? And most people are on academic breaks or take their 2-week work holidays over summer, especially in June.  Like, this has been going on since early April, and then I basically was like “well yeah, most Whovians here are in their twenties and it’s final exam time,” but now???? 

I log in here, though, and I find that even though my follower count is steadily rising,  my dashboard has hardly changed.  The same two or three people (I’m counting you here for sure) reblog or occasionally do threads.  Nobody else. Ever. Posts. Anything.  And most of the people who don’t post here? I can hit up on Skype instead anyway, like my main Jack Harkness, my main Thirteen and Nine, etc.  

 But sometimes, I don’t have energy for immediate social interaction, and I’d rather dick around here, where I have intellectual stimulation but am basically by myself.  Because my spoons are just. In the negatives constantly.  And I’m having what a good friend coined “compassion fatigue” out the bum.  

I attribute some of the graveyard state of my dash to Who being in the off-season until October, but not all of it.  Because I’ve been here since 2015 and I never remember having a lack of things to do or write about, before Simm even came back to the show. 

People have also migrated to Discord and I d e s p i s e Discord. I hate the interface, it’s unnecessarily complicated, the information flow is not at all organic.  It’s for gamers and I don’t fucking game.  

It’s incredibly disheartening.  All of it. Especially when I perennially am disenchanted with this character just because he has been SO evil (despite my sympathy for what he’s suffered and how he’s been literally weaponized) and feel the impulse to just abandon him.   

This was, around Christmas time, my MOST active blog.  And don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful for my core of devoted mutuals, and I have a wonderful time when we write together, but….???? 

I also blame myself. Because Gabriel came back to Supernatural after a character absence of seven solid years and that muse has swallowed my creative energies whole and I feel…weirdly guilty about it? lol. 

On that note, honestly, if you want my Skype? And want to move stuff there occasionally? We can. Just pm me.