//Watching it. A bit under the weather today so I may not be doing the usual, lol, exuberant liveblogging, but I will say I can’t believe I predicted Graham’s moral dilemma and the Doctor’s exact dialogue in response, on a draft on my Thirteen blog a couple  days ago.  

I do wish her moral stance were not so absolute.  It’s always what disorients me about the Doctor. The Doctor is always, in their own conduct, a gray amoral scientist, preoccupied with the how’s of the universe, often negligent to the why’s, often at the expense of other people’s comfort. Yet when they examine other people’s conduct, suddenly they become rigid and almost (or sometimes totally) sanctimonious.  It’s an amazingly self-contradictory dualism.  

But basically, much as I agree with her stance toward what Graham tells her at the outset of the episode, I wish she would understand the context of his wrong-headedness.  Tim Shaw appears right after he’s just fought against the Solitract, which presented him with a tantalizing fantasy of everything he lost with Grace’s death.  This is so raw and fresh for him, and she has already asked so much of him recently. She needs to be more patient, even as she removes him from the picture (which I think she should do immediately, rather than scold him: he’s not in his right mind).  

// Okay so the Solitract (sp?) is an entity that rejects the harmonizing/unification/ordered function of the universe, that refuses the building blocks of existence such as matter and time and mathematics to fall into place and work as a unit.  That sounds fundamentally malevolent.  

//I know from other people watching this that no one the Doctor lost shows up here and I can’t believe they didn’t bring back ANYone, I mean she has lost more people than anyone in the cast? It could have been River or the Ponds or Clara or hell how many times has the Master died? I know a lot of her loved ones that she lost didn’t die but good grief. The only acknowledgment of it is a line of dialogue?  I guess they judged it’d be too distracting from the theme of new beginnings, or from the grief of the companions.  

But either way this is an interesting philosophical conundrum. If the doppleganger/tulpa/whatever has all the memories and feelings of the dead beloved, are they an echo? A reincarnation?  A mere imitation? Do we acknowledge their pain and yearning? Their exact duplication of the life experiences and relationship feelings of the lost?  Or do we rebuff them?  

//I love how composed she is. “Payment on delivery: and leave the knife here.” Like bitch did you really think I wouldn’t notice your weapon and did you think I would trust you just to be an agreeable “madam”? God marry me.