Why the URL change

THANKS FOR ASKING!!!!!!!! *puts on my meta and headcanons hat*

So this is a play on the Master’s self-donned moniker.  I’m essentially inverting what most people assume to be the meaning of the term “Master”: control of OTHERS. Really, it’s control of SELF.  It’s based on this Ask that got me thinking about what I might be able to change the URL to in order to reflect how my Simm Master is unique from (or perhaps within) the canon, what things I want to emphasize, etc, and I came up with the notion that he strives to obtain “self-mastery.”  Meaning,  he wants to be wholly autonomous from others, from their thoughts, their expectations, their will, and, lately, even from the cage of his narcissism, and his need for the validation of others (particularly the Doctor).

At the same time, it’s a note of hope in keeping with Thirteen’s new era, in that anything and anyone can honor the past while changing for the better:  he can master his own destructive and cruel tendencies, if he cares to try.  

It also came from an rp I did a couple days ago with my main Doctor, @mostincrediblechange, in which Thirteen tells the Master that he needs to learn that he holds value that is discrete, self-contained and divorced,  from her or from anybody or anything else, that he can stop chasing the attentions of others, their worship and praise, in order to feel he has value.  As much as he professes to be independent, a defiant iconoclast and survivor, this is something he secretly struggles with and is still learning. Which loops back around to the concept of self-mastery again. :3 

wait I just relistened to Time Adventure by Rebecca Sugar (appropriate title lol) and it’s such a heartbreaking thoschei song??? (especially the last line goddamn)

“Time is an illusion that helps things makes sense
So we’re always living in the present tense
It seems unforgiven when a good thing ends
But you and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then
You and I will always be back then

Singing will happen, happening, happened
will happen, happening, happened
And will happen again and again
Cause you and I will always be back then

If there was some amazing force outside of time
To take us back to where we were
And hang each moment up like pictures on the wall
Inside a billion tiny frames so that we could see it all…all…all
It would look like

Will happen, happening, happened
Will happen, happening, happened
And will happen again and again
Cause you and I will always be back then
Cause you and I will always be back then
Cause you and I will always be back then
That’s why
You and I will always be best friends”

Oh shit. 

What’s a unique headcanon about your master? hes so special to many of your partners because of your interpretation, but what’s something you might not have shared that makes him unique to you?

//There are a few things but I feel like I already rant about them ad nauseam on this blog, LOL.  

1) His tenacity to survive, and how that dogged denial of the odds eternally stacked against him is a form of perverse heroism, and honor.  Most Masters seem to focus on his cruelty and his manipulativeness, which are qualities he’s learned to develop in order to maintain the upper hand in power dynamics, and things I definitely need to deal with as a writer…but I feel every canon muse is a matter of what parts of the canon resonate with you, and you choose to emphasize.  For me, Simm Master appeals initially because he’s so fucking defiant.   Even when it shoots him in the foot or (literally) stabs him in the back, he will not yield when his own sense of self mandates that it’s foolish.  He self-preserves, and that is not inherently evil. What it is, is inherently aliveNo matter what The Doctor Falls tried to prove.  

2) Closely connected, as many have more eloquently detailed, such as @natalunasans and @modernwizard, my Master uniquely emphasizes the neurodivergent roots of his hurtful behavior.  As a child, and in every face, his telepathic abilities were uniquely sensitive, and rendered his psyche, his feelings, thoughts, and impulses more porous than those of other Time Lords.  This porousness–a kind of sci-fi trope for Borderline Personality Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder, and maybe something on the autism spec–was a source of social ridicule, and also of paranoia, and finally, most importantly, a thirst for autonomy. For selfmastery.  Never once was he certain his own thoughts and convictions were his own.  So he forced himself to fanatically shut off others, to deny any attempts, direct or indirect, to exert control over himself (a terrible irony is that from childhood Rassilon was already doing this via “the Drums”).  

hey, i live in the pittsburgh area and i just wanted to let you know that seeing your support for our jewish community on all of your blogs is amazing. it’s a really integral part of our city, as are the people in it clearly, and everyone’s feeling rightfully shocked, angry, and sad right now . so, it’s good to see someone cares <3

//My heart breaks for you and for the people of the Pittsburgh synagogue and the entire American Jewish community.  What I am doing is literally just common decency.  I am chronically ill and disabled so I can’t do much more than talk about this in the public sphere and signal boost resources for Jewish people on the internet. I am not Jewish but a huge chunk of my matrilineal family was, and I have so much reverence for the entirety of the Jewish experience.   Thank you for expressing gratitude but really I have done laughably little as an ally besides what everyone ought to be doing.  If there is anything else in the future that you can think of that I can do from behind a keyboard, or even via community outreach with my church or as a college prof to my students, feel free to let me know.   

Others reading this, read this article.  It’s important.  We need to fight this.  It is unacceptable.  Shame on Donald Trump and the hate he has given anti-Semites and other terrorists the excuse to act upon.  

NO BUT ABOUT THAT THOUGH: There’s this book called the Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane that I read when I was little and in it there’s this scene where Edward is in the dump (Edward is a stuffed rabbit) and there’s this crazy man who stands on top of a trash hill and calls himself ‘the king of all trash’ and LIKE WHAT IT’S SO SIMILAR I was reading it again and I screamed

//lmfao Koschei has excellent literary precedents XDDDD 

Master, I love you. You’re my favorite Master on tumblr and the way you write him is astounding. So much emotion and almost a human quality to him. He’s relatable. He messes up but he can also make you laugh and make the best memories, that little koala. Please don’t lose faith with writing him, he means so much to many, myself included, and he’s wonderful. Know that we love him and you so much.

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Gosh gosh GOSH who sent this?! I have my suspicions LOL….but thank you so much.  I will try very hard!!!  He’s too fun to give up on. On a good day at least, LOL.   Your compliments are very generous and kind.