I’ve always been scared that a part of you will never truly forgive me for leaving you behind all those years ago. Even though we’re happy now, I’m terrified that there’s a seed of anger and hatred still there, buried deep down.

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       “ … and do you think I never fear I’ll awaken one day to the smell of engine exhaust, and the sight of the TARDIS dematerializing, with you inside, afraid of yourself, me, us, what we are, were, or never will be,  abandoning me again?  We remain together not because we have no fear of what we could do to destroy each other, but despite that knowledge.  Every day, love is a choice, that’s what you told me.  Because what we are together is more than our fear of being annihilated by the person who knows us best in all the cosmos.  Or am I wrong?” 

wine-dark-sea:

I hate it when people tell me to trust my instincts. 100% of my instincts are:

– SHAME! THROW YOURSELF INTO THE SUN

– [error message + Eat an entire large papa john’s pizza and a package of break & bake cookies]

– Laugh to stop from crying, be aggressively mean or petty

– Fear-cry + try to fold into the smallest shape possible and become invisible