//Seriously whether I write with a Ryan on this blog or on my Thirteen blog, or hell, any of my other rp blogs, it would mean the world to me, I’m a disabled mun.  I don’t have dyspraxia but I understand keenly the daily frustration of your body betraying you and trying at every turn to hold you back.  I wanna see all the Ryan Sinclairs out there struggling and thriving and living! ❤ HMU Ryans! 

Have you tried BC powders? Are you dehydrated? Caffeine withdrawl?

//Oh friend you’re kind to suggest this stuff.  I see a neurologist regularly and we’ve reached a dead end.  I take botox shots in the head to numb the nerves in my head and neck and shoulders every three months, but unfortunately insurance is refusing coverage right now until I see my NEW neurologist and he writes them a formal “you must cover this procedure for her” letter, and that won’t happen until the 29th of this month, then I’m told I have to expect two more weeks before insurance will respond.  U_U; 

I have tried anticonvulsants and multiple types of antidepressants as prophylactics. I’m on an SNRI that works at least minimally.  I also take feverfew and magnesium oxide and yes, oh yes, hydrate with water nonstop.  I do drink too much caffeine.  

What are BC powders? :O 

//I’m gonna make a quick request, and I swear this is not personally directed, at least not at any current followers, but it’s something I see a lot of villain muns deal with almost incessantly.

And the issue is that we don’t want to be reduced to a plot device for other muses’ convenience.

And what I mean by that is: yes, villains are villains, and initially, in the canon continuity of the show, that’s pretty much their function.  But when someone chooses to take a villain as an rp muse, there are a couple things to consider:

  1. Each interpretation of canonical characters is unique.  No two are alike, and that means each mun has a different set of writing priorities.  Nobody wants to hear “well I thought you wrote X character like this, but YOUR version isn’t very useful.”  Useful to whom, exactly?  
  2.  Villain or not, nobody wants to be approached by someone without prior discussion assuming they will be okay with a certain tone or context. For instance, I don’t want you to hurtle your muse at mine expecting he will be malicious or violent, so that you can have someone to manufacture angst for your personal fulfillment.  Maybe it’s illogical for my villain to be villainous in this context.  Or maybe I want to redeem my villain.  Or maybe I don’t have the emotional energy for a conflict thread that particular day.   You need to collaborate with the other mun first.  Don’t just assume they will serve the function you seek.  There’s a person with needs behind each muse. 

//I’ve had a migraine for three solid days :’) the only thing I can do is basically suffer all day and take a controlled substance once a day at best, at night, to keep myself from throwing up until I dehydrate and go to the ER.  I am so tired and cranky oh my heck :’’’’’)  Forgive any lacklusterness or absence on my part, it is not personal, I love you guys <333 

//I never know quite what to say when someone follows me first and expresses interest in rp, then later tells me that they don’t think it’d work out, but “if I want, they’ll try.”  Let me just make this post to be reassuring: if you find yourself in that position, there is no need to worry. I will not be angry if you decide it’s best we didn’t write together after all. Please always put your comfort first.