//I just scrolled back over a week and could not find the original post for this, I am so sorry D:
Tag: ooc
//Practicing another “day off Tumblr” day because it seems to frankly be very good for my mental health, so unless I post art, probs see y’all later ❤
i need….thirteensimm so badly….but my blood sugar is high and i am tired…..so bed….w e h …..
//and even as i try to counsel a younger friend in the art of healthy self-esteem, i sit here paralyzed by guilt and fearing that, for so many of my own friends, i fall short of being enough. lol. see case in point. being an overachiever fucks you up for the rest of your life.
i wish to god nobody in fucking high school, a million fucking years ago, had ever told me i was “most likely to succeed” and “so smart” and “a genius” and other total untruths because to this DAY i am guiltily, frantically trying to live up to that standard and one day it is going to kill me, i already know this. one day i will snap because i didn’t do “enough” in some obscure way that nobody really cares about and i will just have a nervous breakdown.
like it goes way way way beyond smarts and grades. you start to code your own worth based on your ability to be useful and productive and in some nebulous way “good.”
i will try and try and try to practice healthy coping strategies and self-care and proactive healing methods and this will still be true. maybe not tomorrow or even ten years from now, but i am fully convinced it’s a demon i’ll never exorcise.
i am telling every last one of you millennials and gen-z kids following this blog: do not be me. fuck up once in a while, and don’t care. be free. be healthy.
//Okay well I’m over it lmao. I genuinely have too much fun the majority of the time writing this dumbass puffed-up homicidal kitten to stop now.
My “official” comments on this website’s new censorship policy:
–Obviously this is problematic for a number of different unfairly targeted parts of the userbase, and I find that objectionable.
–It is of particular concern to me that the promises of “better, more positive” experience have historical precedent as a smokescreen over targeting the LGBT community and people who do not practice evangelical Christian abstinence culture, and really have absolutely nothing to do with protecting minors.
–It is of particular concern to me, in fact, that this website has done nothing to actually protect minors before now, nor to purge fascist/white supremacist blogs.
What I will be doing:
–I will be WAITING to see what happens after December 17. I don’t believe any of us can make level-headed judgments until we see this (highly questionable) new community standard in praxis. After that point, I will be considering the following actions:
- –I do NOT think Pillowfort is a viable alternative at the present time. Maybe in the future, if and when they work out the kinks of their site, and remove the membership fee that I cannot afford. It is not an option FOR ME, at the present time.
- –I DO have a Discord and mutuals may feel free to ask for it. I do not use it often, but I am willing to try to change this habit, since it seems like it’s the direction most people are headed for instant messaging rp.
- –I DO have an art Twitter and mutuals may feel free to ask for it. Ditto for deviantART.
- –I will be backing this blog up to WordPress.
- –I AM willing to create a Dreamwidth account if this situation worsens. If I do, I will let people know here.
//Yep I called it.
//Watching it now.
This episode reminds me a looooooOOooOoOOOoOooot of Midnight, from Ten’s Era, an episode which was so fucking freaky.
// >_________________> I have seen zero new content cross the dash and this makes me nervous, was the episode so bad or devastating that you’re all in collective shock or????
//lol okay yeah from the answers I just got I don’t even want to know tonight, tonight I am in a fragile mood and I want to pretend to be happy about Christmas and family time a little longer. I’ll watch it tomorrow. lskdjhfg.
Icarus 