Okay lemme fix this.

Go to wherever you feel most rested, validated, and at peace with others, and recharge.  Open doors to people who show you basic respect, and close doors gently but firmly on those who do not.  Say “thank you for your ideas but I respectfully disagree” and deny haters a platform period.  Babies come whenever you are financially, physically, and emotionally stable, and ready and willing to raise a human being to adulthood, and can safely carry the pregnancy.  There is a continuum of gender and much of gender identity is socially arbitrary.  Guys and girls and nonbinary pals enter consensual mutually loving bonds with whatever other adult they please.  Love and pray better than CP and their divisive, reductive, exclusionary ilk ever could.