masterfulxrhythm:

.___.  my blood sugar is high, my throat is really sore, i have had a migraine every day since october…..6…? no matter how much i sleep i’m exhausted, and i think i have another cold. 

//Ooookay make that a stomach virus.  And every time I have a stomach virus there’s about a 60-70% chance of going to the hospital and being admitted, for me, because of T1 Diabetic ketones, so uh. Hold a good thought or prayer for me? Might be out of commission for a bit. 

illusivexemissary:

//I just want everyone to know that I’m doing the best I can but because I put what I thought I SHOULD be doing first this past week, instead of what I NEED to be doing (that is, for other people, instead of for myself), my weight loss stopped and my physical and mental health both took a drastic downturn. I cannot do that anymore.  I am 35 and not willing to lose the rest of my prime fervently scrambling to please others.  

I don’t mean this to sound harsh, but what that means is that rp blogs are going to take a drastic backseat to real life, and yes, that includes Skype rp too.  When I am here, I will do the drafts that intellectually and emotionally stimulate me first, and I will stop apologizing for that as well.  If you want to read into that as me having “favorites” or “not valuing you” when that is so far from the truth, I cannot control your perceptions and I will no longer try to. 

My life needs to be more balanced. And by January all of this will be moot because I will be back to work teaching full-time.  People need to start getting used to me not being around constantly anyway.

I can’t fix everything for everybody.  Not that anybody thinks they’re asking for that, but they are.  Thanks for understanding that I’m only human.